Life has been interesting for me lately. In my quiet times I’ve been looking into trusting God. Trusting God is a simple concept. But for me doing that practically does not come easy. I am a perfectionist. I like for things to go a certain way. I like for things to be in a certain order. I like it when all my ducks are aligned and I approve of how they are aligned. I don’t fail. I can’t mess up. Everything has to go PERFECTLY!
How far from the truth is that? You probably thought I sounded ridiculous as you read that. I even thought I sounded ridiculous as I read that. But that’s who I am. I’m a person whose actions show that I think my plan is better than God’s plan. Why? Because I can’t see what he’s up to. I can’t look over his shoulder to make sure things are the way I like it. I can’t ask him questions to make sure he has the right idea in mind and because of that my days get looooong. They get long because I wrestle with relinquishing control. They get long because it’s difficult for me to surrender to a plan I do not have in front of me. They get long because although I see God moving I don’t see the end goal. This leaves me in a desperate and uneasy place.
And then I came across this scripture…
Isaiah 40:25 “To whom will you compare me? Who is my equal?” asks the Holy One
God literally said, “So Shell tell me whose better than me for the job then.” I was so convicted. So hurt. So disappointed in myself. Isaiah 40: 12-31 (I highly recommend reading it) is an awesome passage of scripture. The passage basically speaks to the fact that mere humans could never even understand the depth of God. He held the oceans in his hand. He knows the weight of the Earth. He has never needed anyone’s advice. The people on Earth seem like grasshoppers to him. The nations of the world are but dust on a scale to him. I mean this passage of scripture goes IN! This was a truth that I so desperately needed to hear!
Isaiah 40:12 Who else has held the oceans in his hand? Who has measured off the heavens with his fingers? Who else knows the weight of the earth or has weighed the mountains and hills on a scale 13: Who is able to advise the Spirit of the Lord? Who knows enough to give him advice or teach him?
When I read through this passage of scripture I realized that God hears my request and just shakes his head. The fact that I think that the things that I need are a big task for God is an insult. I can just hear God saying “yo be for real. If you’re going to doubt me at least make it a challenge for me.” But the truth is that nothing is a challenge for God. There is nothing that we can think to ask God for that stumps him or causes him to really have to think about how he is going to pull that off.
SO WHAT ARE YOUR ACTIONS SAYING ABOUT YOUR TRUST IN GOD?
How many times do we claim to believe God yet continue to worry? How many times do we claim to have faith yet step out in our own strength? How may times is God really our first go to person? How many times do we leave a prayer truly knowing that whatever comes of that situation is God’s best for our life. The even greater question is that if you don’t trust that God will take care of that thing then who is it going to handle it? Do you know more than God? Will your friends have the answer? Is there another god in your life? Will your vast knowledge help you to figure it out on your own? No, really! If God doesn’t do it then WHO WILL?!
This is a realization that I’ve had to come to and that I am honestly still working through myself. I’m working on what it really looks like to have peace in everyday life because of my trust in God. I’m learning what it is truly like to be in the moment and care free. Not because I have it all figured out but simply because I serve a God who does. This is hard. It’d be far from the truth to try to convince you that this is easy. This way of living goes against everything the world tells you make sense. So you must realize that this world isn’t home. The principles that you live according to do not align with this place that you’re visiting. You’re in this world but not of this world. So the fact that this doesn’t make sense makes perfect sense.
So here’s to walking in peace. Here’s to walking in confidence. Here’s to walking in security. Here’s to enjoying every single day for what it is. Here’s to accepting the good with the bad. Here’s to trusting a God who already overcame it all.
Yours in love,
Shell
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